wood-eye
(Bruce
Dawe, 1930 - )
No nursing-sister
ever walked
into our ward but Wood-eye
cocked an eye
(the good one, still
unbandaged)
in our direction, lay
there like a lamb
thinking his lion’s
thoughts. Calm fingers took
like a professional
sneak-thief his stirred pulse.
I’ve never seen a man
whose libido’s red-light
as steadily burned in
that last street
whose name nobody
knows. In Wood-eye’s world
all roads led to
Gommorrah where he practiced
as a sort of resident
specialist on call
24 hours a day. No
instrument
but had it’s phallic
relevance: thermometer,
spatula, syringe were
sign-posts on the way
to a consummation
devoutly to be wished ….
‘Would I?’ he
murmured, writhing on the rack
of unrealizable
possibilities as some cool
sister exited: Oh
Jesus, would I, what!’
So we called him
‘Wood-eye’. Something in his look
suggested that that
eye-ball swivelling
in its carven socket,
and that unseen eye
under the gauze-pad
were like wooden things
intent on meaning
more than just themselves
totems, you might
say, to which we looked
for meaning while we
hunched around the ward
or lay like
anchorites on sheets that smelled
as clean as baker’s
aprons. Wood-eye’s wit
flapped like a pennon
on a distant hill. He was the ravaged,
he was mystery, the
figure slouching off into the night,
into the gun-fire
crackling like leaves,
coming back at dawn
and saying nothing
or nothing with his
lips that could drown out
the heavy music of
his silences.
And if now I could
know
his cancer cured, the
bandages dispersed,
the hospital a
fleeting memory,
the knives not
feared, the sexy sisters gone
from his mind’s
racing rink,
the need to grin upon
a leaden fate,
all passed away, all
passed,
would I
rejoice
until this sober skin
burst open like a
grape from which might be stamped out
the final wine of
love,
would I rejoice, then,
would I, would I what!
I don’t
know about you, but in the first verse I’m having a sly laugh at ‘Wood-eye’,
thinking he’s absurd, not only for how he obviously thinks, but also because he
continues to think that way despite the predicament he’s in, dying of cancer –
like, be serious, give it a rest mate, you’re in hospital for christ sake! But old ‘Wood-eye’s’ still ‘writhing on the rack of unrealiseable
possibilities’. Then in the second
verse I get the feeling ‘Wood-eye’ is a bit of a hero in the eyes of the other
fellas – ‘ ....... wit flapped like a pennon on a distant
hill, ……he was mystery ……….coming back at dawn
…………. the heavy music of his
silences’. I think he was a hero
because of his refusal to give up – to give up his sexual desire. Instead, to openly and boldly maintain his
interest in lust, ‘if I’m still thinking about sex, then I must be still alive!’ It makes us wonder about the importance sex
gives to the purpose and meaning of life.
The status of hero is confirmed in the last verse. It almost seems Wood-eye’s humour, sexual
innuendos, clichés helped the others to survive, while he himself died.
In each
of my posts I try to give a poem that I’ve written, influenced by one of my favourite
poets. My poem in this post is, A Moment With Al. The subject of the poem reminds me to be
always observant of the simple situations in life. This is my life. It isn’t always exciting, active or profound
– mostly it isn’t! And that is what I am
given to write. So I stop to talk to an
old guy at work and he tells me about this cancer operation he’s going in
for. I’m thinking of Dawe’s ‘Wood-eye’
when the old guy starts telling me that his doctor’s a good looking sort with
silky, black hair and she touches him on the leg ……….. good on you Al, you’re
still alive!
2012. Sometimes we don’t fully appreciate that
each person has life outside the gate.
And that life is very real and personal and a million miles from the
game played out in the factory.
A Moment With Al
Walk through the gate
beneath the liquid amber trees,
their branches now gnarled
fingers
held warming toward a feeble
winter sun.
Stop and talk to old Al,
of rain and garden mulch
and the August winds
that will dry the ground out,
but Al tells me he won’t be
preparing
his gardens for spring,
not this year,
he’s going into hospital
to have a cancer cut out of his
chest.
He went and saw Stuey
to take long service leave
but Stuey said take it as sick
leave,
that’s what it’s for.
Al thought that was kind
at a time when kindness was
needed.
He’ll be away four weeks,
on the operating table two
hours,
that he had trouble finding,
ended up parking in the council
car-park
and searching on foot.
He told the receptionist of the
trouble,
she said we’ve got a car-park
right here under the hospital,
at which, Al gives my arm
a knowing punch-line tap
from the back of his hand, car
park!
I couldn’t even find the
building
so I wouldn’t want to be trying
to find a fucking car-park!
I hoped the doctor
could find all the cancer.
He says the doctor’s a woman,
then quickly bloke-a-fies it by
saying
her name’s Tinika, about 40,
slim,
Al’s concentration during
diagnosis
may not have been entirely
steady, but
I guess he’ll be steady enough
on the table.
J. O. White
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